2003-04-09 - 3:50 a.m.
Observations this day
1. He is a true professor who can take the already delicious, and make it more tantalizing.
2. “I don’t want to talk; I am in more of a listening mode tonight… I will probably tell you when I have dealt with it myself… I don’t know… I’m becoming more like you.”
And then it struck me: As she eanestly sought Him, she grew quieter. It is true, thought I, that He does call us to silence. I am glad.
3. My new distraction is making CD’s, or lists for CD’s, to accompany books or to let go of certain memories. I write… all the time, all day long; and used to I repeated myself. It was obvious I sought catharsis from my life. But the CD making has achieved this for me. It truly has, so I hunger for the release these are for me.
I looked at the last CD of mine, chock full of memories since five-years-old, and a type of hope it also holds. I looked too, at the one that tells the story of what happened a year and a week ago, and shook my head. It is time to look at the more recent years, the person I am today, and the future. So I made another CD that is not current enough, but it is nearer. The next one will be it. I discovered, though, after playing it a couple times to test the organization of the tracks, that it is painfully melacholy. Not depressing like --- says your music always is; but certainly melancholy. But – I guess – I am melancholy when not enthusiastic. Is it impossible to want to be more constant in my moods? I will not excuse this with my chromosones or hormones.
4. The best oil is found at the top; the best wine is found in the middle; and the best honey is found at the bottom.
